It's been 5 days since I last posted, time just goes so quickly for me at the moment.
I went over to see Dad in the week after Sunday's bad afternoon. I hoovered, polished and cleaned for him whilst the children cheered him up by telling him tales of why farmers like Llamas and a monster that Jack had seen on the school field. Dad just adores them, and showers them with sweets when we arrive! They adore him too, I wish he knew just how much.
We sat and chatted over a cuppa and it was a really nice morning, I also nipped to the shop to pick him up a few essentials which he appreciated. It was quite nice for me too, I very rarely get to clean now without 'help' from the children!
It set the week though, and by the time I went to work I couldn't be arsed. I was so tired and I couldn't concentrate.
Then the topic of 'her' came up at work. I work with a lady who knows 'her' through a mutual friend. She's always asking if I've seen 'her' and every time my answer is the same. I kept getting the feeling that she wanted to tell me something. So I turned it around and asked her if she had. She said no, but then asked if she was still with the married man carrying his baby!
I couldn't believe it.
All the times 'she' told me not to tell anyone and no-one knew but me, she had told someone, who told someone else. Some secret. So I then told her just what had happened between us and she was utterly shocked. It was nice that she finally understood why I had been so down and why we don't speak anymore. It's also nice to know that someone else knows just what a nasty piece of work she really is. My work colleague never liked her from the word go and she would make her opinion known to me!
I thought I'd feel guilty but I didn't, this is a good sign in my opinion!
I'm hoping now that she won't ask about 'her' anymore, and that we can go one week without her bloody name being mentioned.
I sound like such a weirdo when I read that back. I wish I could just say what went on so I don't sound like such a geek about it all but I'm not going to. 'She' isn't anything to do with me anymore, and if she wants to tell the world then she can do.